Action Research 2

Studio part

I drew the draft of these work in the last unit. I post it in the unit 1 action research. In this work, I still focus on humanity and self. This is quite a self-portrait, event though the man in picture is not painted according to my look, is just kind of the image in my mind.

The content of this picture is very simple, a man and a tree, the tree grows out of the human hand, the root of the tree is soaked in water. This picture depicts the feeling of the beginning of life. Water is the source of life, naked figures and the action of holding water with his hands symbolize the primitive. This tree is a symbol of life and everything from the zero.

Painting this picture is to find a sense of peace, to put aside the complex things in society, to come to a quiet, lonely space, to be alone with myself, and to talk with myself. So there is no rich color and complex texture in this painting. The color of this painting is plain and the shape is thin. This simple and peaceful feeling is what I want to create

My inspiration for drawing these two pictures comes from seeing the clouds in the sky through a tree branch without leaves in the park one day. The clouds at this time are like the leaves of a tree, which makes people trance. At one time, I can't tell whether they are clouds or leaves. It's a very interesting angle, and it's similar to the visual illusion painting that I used to like painting. Then I drew this idea and combined my previous visual illusion idea with the shape of white clouds.

These two paintings are a kind of change of my recent creation. If the previous creation is to think about and explore the relationship between human beings, society and self, then from here on, I have focused more on myself, because in the process of exploring the relationship between the three, I found that what I couldn't understand and be familiar with most is myself. We all have too many unknowns about ourselves, and we have too many unknowns hidden in our unconsciousness, Understanding oneself is a lifelong goal and difficult problem. Also from this time, I began to pay attention to people's unconsciousness.

I didn't plan the direction of the branches as well as the composition of the picture. I indulge my own emotions and desires. To be honest, I don't know why I want to draw these two stone head statues. I only remember that I just wanted to draw them at that time. I feel that I don't know myself enough. At that time, my feelings must be related to my unconsciousness. In the future, maybe the next unit, I will continue to explore my unconsciousness. I hope I can figure out what causes my unconsciousness to want to draw stone head statues.

Isolation part

Because of the special situation, It's very limited for a long-term project. So this time, I will publish more fragmentary ideas and thoughts. There are many things that can't be done in isolation at home, there are also many things that can be done.

The following two pastel paintings were drawn when I started to isolate. This year, I seldom use materials other than oil paint. At the beginning of isolation, I miss oil paint very much. But in the end, I couldn't control my desire to create. I took out the pastels that I didn't use for a long time. In fact, I have drawn a lot of pastel paintings before. I am familiar with this material. The use of pastel made me feel a little bit better. What I like most about pastel is that you can wipe it with your hands. I like the feeling of touching the canvas and paper very much. Pastel painting has a unique sense of atmosphere, so these two paintings also have some different feelings from my previous paintings. My previous paintings are a little bit unchangeable. These two paintings give me a new feeling. I like them very much.

When drawing the second picture, I think of the previous group crit. Yvonne said that she saw the 'protection' in my painting. She felt that the branches covered the head and the saplings were in the hands, giving a sense of protection. I realized this feeling when I drew the glass bottle with the small tree below. Obviously, these were drawn by me in the unconscious situation. I began to think whether there was such a feeling in my subconscious. I have this kind of thoughts because many of my creations are based on my childhood memory, and my childhood is also spent in a world where I protect myself.

It's hard to stick to one thing all the time when I stay at home for a long time. The routine is a bit boring, so I'll try something new. I always think that traditional materials are slow in creation. It takes a lot of time to draw a picture. But sometimes I want to catch the inspiration of the flash. Sometimes I just want to quickly create a work but doesn't look so fast. Then I made these three-dimensional works. I did it on the iPad with a software called putty3d. This is very different from traditional painting. I can quickly create all the shapes I want, just like sculpture. It's fast, but it doesn't look like that. Because it's actually very difficult to operate when drawing, it's difficult for you to control the movement and deformation of the brush and model to the position you expect, which is reflected in the results. But I like it very much. It has a simple and original feeling, I call this stupid but honest.

My girlfriend Luna (Jingyi Huang) is learning to draw with adobe AI recently. One day she wanted me to draw a draft and then she finished it with AI. I thought it was quite interesting. Finally, we finished a work together. This picture also gives me some different ideas. I was very surprised when she just showed me the finished work. She made the feeling I just imagined. I asked her if she had deliberately painted according to the feeling of my previous works, and she said no. She didn't think about it so much when she was painting, but she just drew it according to my composition. I realized that sometimes I ignored the influence of draft and composition. I always think that color and texture have the greatest influence on the final effect of the painting, but through this attempt, I found that perhaps a painting or a draft and composition have determined the temperament and final effect of the painting. Maybe they don't play a decisive role, but the impact must be more than I thought.

Two people live together every day, and there will definitely be conflicts after a long time. Luna and I occasionally quarrel, though not many times. But quarreling is also an opportunity sometimes, it will also give me some inspiration. Sometimes it's hard to avoid losing control of emotions when quarreling. Once out of control, it will become more serious. In the last quarrel, I chose to stay alone on the balcony for a while. I from the beginning of holding my head squatting sad, to full lying on the ground, looking at the blue sky and white clouds. I don't know why there is a desire to create, or even an impulse to write poetry. I began to conceive my poems, and my bad mood was gradually transferred into my creation. With the completion of the poem, the warm sunshine and the call of Luna, my bad mood has gone. I like the feeling of creation more and more, even if it is not painting, it can be any other form.

我躺在地上

我躺在地上，

老鼠在啃食我的身体，

他好像

把我和垃圾袋搞混了。

鸟儿从我的头顶飞过，

苍蝇在我的眼前盘旋，

天上的白云不是很白，

颜色像乌云。

外边有些冷，

太阳有时候

会出来，

会非常暖和。

就这样躺着，

很容易感到寒冷，

也很容易被温暖。

我慢慢起来，

和老鼠商量，

我告诉老鼠，

你该回家了。

老鼠走了，

太阳还在，

非常温暖，

比之前任何一个时刻，

都要温暖。

这时有个声音在叫我，

我也该回家了。

Lying on the ground,

I‘m lying on the ground,

The mouse is eating my body,

He seems

Confused me with the garbage bag.

Birds fly over my head,

Flies hover in front of my eyes,

The white clouds in the sky are not very white,

The color is like a dark cloud.

It's a little cold outside,

The sun sometimes

Will come out,

It will be very warm.

Lying here,

It's easy to feel cold,

It's also easy to be warm.

I got up slowly,

Discuss with the mouse,

I told the mouse,

It's time for you to go home.

The mouse is gone,

The sun is still there,

It's very warm,

Warm,

More than ever before.

There was a voice calling me,

It's time for me to go home, too.

I wrote this poem in Chinese. From the perspective of Chinese, I feel that the artistic conception of my poem is very close to my painting. It just looks like my painting. I think it's very interesting. I translated an English version, I don't know if it is still the same as my painting in English version. In addition, I think it's very interesting to write poems. I sometimes write poems before. In the future, I will try more things, maybe write a song.

By the way I also drew a draft about the moment I lying on the ground.

Here are all about my works and thoughts in Unit 2, I will separate this section to 2 parts. The border of this 2 parts is isolation.

Firstly I will talk about the works before the coronavirus, I made these works in the studio.